A viscous circle...

I am stuck in a rut right now. I lost alot of weight over the past couple years. Although the first 30lbs were done pretty healthy. The rest was much starving/coffee/stress diet. Now the stress is over and the starving doesn't seem to be working anymore. *sips coffee* So the weight is coming back on, pretty quick. I meet with the doctor on tuesday. I am sure there is nothing medically wrong. But I want to get that cleared, so they can refer me to a dietician.

Until then, I am stuck. Not fitting into anymore of my clothes. Not wanting to go out. Looking in the mirror and seeing fat. How can I lose this weight, if I am too depressed with myself to get out and do something? I haven't been to work in ages. Partially because we had company visiting from Chicago. But after they left, I couldn't find any work clothes to fit into. Not comfortable enough for me to work in. And my fat suit (one of those body girdles) is getting too tight. I want to puke when I am wearing it.

So here I am. Wasting my days on trying to get a Blog going. Now I have it done, and I sit at my computer. Fine. I will get my butt on the elliptical.

P.S. The Butt is the least of my worries. I am one of those that get it all around my mid section.